Tuesday, October 27, 2009



Sunday, October 25, 2009

This and That...

Today I am just going to ramble a bit... hope u enjoy it..lol  I am learning that I am more and more like my mother everyday.  When I was a teenager I used to think the LAST person I ever wanted to emulate was my mother!  I always said "when I grow up and have children...I am NOT going to be like YOU"  haha  surprise....  guess who I see more and more each and every day.  But you know what - I can only hope that I am half the person my dear mother is.. she has to be the most God fearing woman I have ever known.  I love her with all my heart!  I said all of that basically just to say that I am rambling here like my mom does on her newsletter on their website =)  At least that is what she calls it - yet it is always enjoyable to read.  I hope mine is the same..

This week has definately been a different week for me. My trainer put me on more of a "canned diet" than I have been on so far.  I had been having problems knowing what to eat..how much to eat, etc for the number of calories I was supposed to have at this point.  It was causing me to really be on the merry go round when it came to the scale - up one week..down one week.  I was getting extremely discouraged.  The diet he gave me is a little tough because it is important to eat EXACTLY the items on the list...and some of them I was not crazy about in the beginning.  Cottage cheese is an example of one of those items.  In the past - you could not have paid me to put that icky stuff in my mouth - I am now eating it at least once a day..sometimes twice.  I do feel like I have lost this week - the true test will come Tuesday when I step up on the scale.  Jim said he wished I would just stay off the scale - but I really do not know how to do that and still be able to monitor my progress.

I don't know if any of you were fans of the tv show "Ruby" on Oxygen. But I always had it on my DVR and watched it all the time. She is such a beautiful woman and I relate to her sooo much it is not even funny. In some of the very first episodes - she was telling how everyone always told her what a beautiful FACE she had..and how she was soo sick of being just a pretty face. She wanted to have the body to go along with the face and the personality.  That is SOOO me.  If I had a nickel for every time in my life someone told me what a great personality I had or that I had such a pretty face, I would be a millionaire by now.  It really gets old and almost is degrading to hear people say that because you know if they are saying it that way...it means they don't find the whole package attractive =(  One of the last episodes of the season this year just really pulled my heart strings.  I sat watching it and bawled almost the entire time - I think because I could relate so well to all of the young girls.  Ruby had gone to "fat camp" to talk to the kids and encourage them.  One of the exercises she had them do was to write down their dreams on a piece of paper...if they were comfortable - she wanted them to read it to the group.  These were girls and boys ranging in age from like 10 - 17.  Some of their dreams were: to grow up and become a doctor, be a teacher, etc.. the ones that got to me were the ones that put down dreams like the 10 year old that wrote she wanted to get thru one whole day without someone making fun of her...or the 13 yr old that wrote she would like to be able to cross her legs instead of her feet when she sits.. or the 15 yr old that wrote she would like to have a boyfriend one day. I have felt each and every one of these very same things.

Do any of you ever watch shows like "The Biggest Loser" or "DietTribe" or any other weight loss type show where it will give you the persons weight - and if there is someone on there even close to your weight ..you compare how you look?  I wonder sometimes if I am in denial to a point because recently when I was watching "Dance your ass off" - there were girls on there that weighed LESS than me but when I looked at them all I could think was WOW..do I look like THAT??  And alot of times I feel really good about myself until I see myself in pictures...what is it with that?  I look in the mirror all the time..every day as a matter of fact. But I always look soo much fatter in picures.  lol 

Ok well.. it is getting late and I still need to get up off my butt and go to the grocery store for I am out of cottage cheese and chicken..lol  I also have not exercised today - which I really need to do...soooo I guess I will check in with you guys on Tuesday...hopefully with good news =)  Until then...

Oh yeah.. here is a pic of me and my girl Michelle at BodyJam... not a great pic of me as I had just finished BodyStep and was headed in to BodyJam... but I love it cuz it is with Michelle and I love this girl!! She helps to keep me soo motivated.. Thanks Michelle! Oh and for the record I am pretty sure she spells her name differently than I do..but not sure how..lol  sorry.. I still love ya girl!!

thanks all for reading and commenting =)

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Surprise?? Not really.. :-/

Well..  I had an awesome week..  and it shows on the scale.  That soo totally sux!!  It is soooo easy to put it on and so hard to take it off... just not fair!! LOL
I gained 4 pounds this week =(  It will probably take me 3 weeks to take that back off UGH!!  But it was not really a surprise..as I ate pretty much whatever I wanted this last week. 

Soooo...I jumped back on the wagon this week full speed ahead.  Body Jam 50 premiered Monday night at the Shelby County Y and OMGGGG  it was INCREDIBLE!! I am going to love that one =)   I also received a new home exercise thing that I had ordered previously called "The Wave" from the Firm... going to rock that wave and see what happens hehe 

I still want a BodyBugg really bad!!  But my sweet trainer Jim is working really hard trying to get my eating back on track..I have even been eating cottage cheese for breakfast - and those of you that know me personally..knows that is HUGE!! lol

I had a really awesome weekend with my friend from HS..Sandy =)  Her lil baby dog is so cute..I was allergic to her fur - but she was so cute I didn't care..  am putting a pic of her here so u can see what I mean hehe Her "mommy" dresses her up and dotes on her worse than a child  lol  But it was alot of fun..thanks Sandy..I needed that girl!  Can't wait until the Ala/AU game - hope I get to come!!

Cynthia girl.. u look awesome!!  I hope I can get to where u are... you keep me going!! I am so proud of you!!
Laters guys!!

Kimmy in her "snuggie"

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Getting Frustrated...

Ok... well to begin I DID lose this week.. one whole pound. I know, I know - at least I lost and a pound is a pound is a pound.. but I feel like I am forever losing the SAME pound! I don't seem to be moving forward like I had been in the beginning.  I am not sure what I am doing wrong. There are some weeks I can tell you exactly where I went wrong yanno.. like when I eat a whole pizza or ice cream or whatever else I am craving at the time.  But when I am watching what I eat and exercising diligently I don't get why I can't or am not losing like I want to be losing.  It is very frustrating.  I think one of the biggest things is I am not SURE I am eating the right amount of calories to optimize my weight loss.  My trainer - well ..the trainer that is nice enough to help me on the side I guess.. started me out with a specific amount of calories that I needed to be eating each day to lose weight. And I lost..alot! However, at the time I had JUST started working out and might get to the gym 2 - 3 times per week. Now alot of weeks I get to the gym 2-3 times per DAY.  So when I first hit a little plateau - he said "You may not be eating enough food for the amount of exercise you are doing and your body goes into starvation mode...eat more"  So, I did..and I lost a few more pounds. Then I had someone else tell me I was eating waay too many calories a day for my body to lose weight and I should cut back. I did - lost a few more.  In the meantime during all of this I had weeks where I went up as well as down.  How do I KNOW for sure how many calories are good for my body to lose with the amount of exercise I am doing?  I have NO idea how to do this - other than to be able to know exactly how many calories I am burning with every workout.  The only way I know how to do that is this awesome little device that some of you may have seen on The Biggest Loser called a BodyBugg. You wear it and it is able to tell you how many calories you burn 24 hours/day.  I really want one - but they are a little expensive. Then I would also have questions then too I think.  I was told if I got one of those - as long as I had a calorie deficit of 1500 per day...I would lose 3 pounds per week on a fairly regular basis.  I guess my question then would be - ok...but at what point does the body get to the "starvation mode" and start saving calories?

See where the frustration is coming in??  WHY does this have to be so hard??

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

It's a Miracle hehe

I LOST WEIGHT THIS WEEK!!  YES PEOPLE THAT'S WHAT I SAID...I ACTUALLY LOST!!  WOOOO HOOOO  =)   This week was one of those weeks that I fully expected the scale to show not only an increase - but a few pounds.  And it did - the middle of the week..lol  (yes, I am guilty of hoppin on that scale every few days just to peek at my progress haha)  I ate so many things this week  that I was not supposed to have - but they were all ohhh so good!  haha  I had girls night out Wednesday night..my son turned 16 yrs old on Thursday - so we had dinner and ice cream cake. Then, I figured I had already blown it at the Comedy Club on Wednesday so I even went to Chili's for lunch on Thursday and ate that triple dipper thing.. :-o  YUM! 

I did continue to exercise all week - and on Friday I went to the store and got salad and grapes and had that pretty much for 2 days and exercised like a mad woman..lol  When I hopped up on the scale this morning - all I could say was "Thank you Lord!" I had lost 2.6 lbs - which put me 51 pounds down total... yeah... the scale is moving in the right direction again.

I am researching this lil item called a BodyBugg - they use it on the Biggest Loser and I think it would be very very helpful in my journey.. just not sure about it yet.  Stay tuned for more info..  Thanks for all the comments and support!

Special shout out this week to Nancy at the Y.. she has been sooo sweet to take in some of my fav clothes now that they don't fit anymore... you're awesome girl!!