Depressed... not good!

Sorry for my absence all...  I celebrated by 40th.. yes yes  I made it to 40!!  Not quite Fabulous yet, but am on my way..  I took a recent pic to try and see if I could tell really how far I have come.. and I felt really good after looking at this one =)

I still have a ways to go..but it is nice to be able to look at pics and tell that I really have made some progress towards the goal.  It has been tough the last few weeks because I ate too much while the folks were in town (my fault..not theirs) and especially around my birthday..  then I got sick and I have had a really hard time getting over it..still not completely well yet.   The Eat Stop Eat thing just really was not for me.. I think I could do it more for  a maintenance type thing.. but it didn't help me lose any weight.  I gained the week of my birthday..of course  =)  but I did lose this week.. so that is good.

I have just been feeling really down lately..part of it I think is the cold I have had - but part of it is because my son has been talking about going in to the military for years.  It is what he has planned to do with his life for some time now.  I never dreamed he might not be able to do it simply because of something he was born with. It is very depressing!  He has ADHD and takes daily medication - but the military requires you to be off of any meds for at least a year prior to signing up.  Not only was this what my son really wants to do with his life - it was probably the only way he was going to get to go to college (I certainly don't have the money) and with his dad dying and being out of his life at such an early age..I felt this was something he truly NEEDED in his life.  I am just really down about it.  I mean, I will do whatever it takes to get him to school if that is what he chooses to do - but I don't know how to tell him he won't be able to join the National Guard in October. He is in R O T C at school and loves it! It has been sooo very good for him. I just don't know what to do...