Depressed... not good!

Sorry for my absence all...  I celebrated by 40th.. yes yes  I made it to 40!!  Not quite Fabulous yet, but am on my way..  I took a recent pic to try and see if I could tell really how far I have come.. and I felt really good after looking at this one =)

I still have a ways to go..but it is nice to be able to look at pics and tell that I really have made some progress towards the goal.  It has been tough the last few weeks because I ate too much while the folks were in town (my fault..not theirs) and especially around my birthday..  then I got sick and I have had a really hard time getting over it..still not completely well yet.   The Eat Stop Eat thing just really was not for me.. I think I could do it more for  a maintenance type thing.. but it didn't help me lose any weight.  I gained the week of my birthday..of course  =)  but I did lose this week.. so that is good.

I have just been feeling really down lately..part of it I think is the cold I have had - but part of it is because my son has been talking about going in to the military for years.  It is what he has planned to do with his life for some time now.  I never dreamed he might not be able to do it simply because of something he was born with. It is very depressing!  He has ADHD and takes daily medication - but the military requires you to be off of any meds for at least a year prior to signing up.  Not only was this what my son really wants to do with his life - it was probably the only way he was going to get to go to college (I certainly don't have the money) and with his dad dying and being out of his life at such an early age..I felt this was something he truly NEEDED in his life.  I am just really down about it.  I mean, I will do whatever it takes to get him to school if that is what he chooses to do - but I don't know how to tell him he won't be able to join the National Guard in October. He is in R O T C at school and loves it! It has been sooo very good for him. I just don't know what to do...

Yes! On the road again... to success =)

Finally..  a weigh in - in the right direction!!  Yeah.. lost 3.5 this week  yee haw!  I have been mixing up my exercise program and I think it has helped some.  I think my body had gotten used to the exercise routine that I was doing and the mixing threw it for a loop ~ a good one. 

I have started spinning in place of step.. that has been an experience.  I like it tho.  I think it will be a while before I have a good solid ride though - meaning where I can stand when they say stand and stay up the whole time they are up..increase intensity every time she says to..etc..  But so far - I think I have done pretty well. I think I may need to get a knee brace tho for my left knee.. it is hurting some when I spin =(  

I am also walking more... when I first began this journey last year..that was my main form of exercise and it did me well then...  my lunch time classes have kind of gotten stale..so have decided when I don't want to do anything else.. I will just go walk.  I was amazed that I burned almost 600 calories yesterday by walking 3 miles at lunch. That is waaaay more than I ever burned at step or crunk at lunch.  I LOVE having the BodyBugg so that I actually know that =)

I also threw some swim time into the mix today. I love the water - and it feels sooo good right after a good spin to get in and swim a few laps.  My friend Cynthia that has lost so much weight - swims ALOT.. she is trying to get me start swimming at 5:30 when she does.. haha  I am sooo not a morning person.. but maybe this would help flip my body out a little too.. keep it guessing.. keep it burning =)

I am trying out a new eating program that I read about on one of the blogs I follow here - called "Eat Stop Eat".. basically you eat moderately 5 days out of the week and fast for 2. The thing is - you never go one entire day without eating.. you fast for 24 hours.. but you fast from like 8am Monday until 8am Tuesday..  so you would have eaten breakfast on Monday..I just started it this week and have fasted one day so far - I think I am going to like it. I am interested to see what the results on the scale will be..

Well... the BIG DAY is next week... Tuesday  to be exact.. weigh in day no less  haha  I will be the BIG 4 0!! I soo wanted to be at least halfway to my goal by now =(  It would also be really nice to have a boyfriend on my birthday for once..  I have been alone for so long - it stinks!!  I keep thinking there IS someone out there for me.. God just has him waiting for me.. but REALLY.. I am about to be FORTY...  send him on overrrrr already!!!  LOL

Ok guys.. headed to bed.. as always.. leave me love <3

Live..Love..Laugh and BodyJam!!
Cassi